Why did the poet said in poem own true family by Ted Hughes why he awake two times?

Ted Hughes' poem "Own True Family" doesn't explicitly state that the speaker wakes up two times. The poem is about the speaker's relationship with his family, specifically his mother and father, and how he sees them as a source of comfort and strength.

The poem's language is evocative and suggestive, and it's possible you are misremembering or misinterpreting a specific line. Could you please share the line or stanza you are referring to?

Without that specific context, it's difficult to say for sure why the speaker might be said to be awake two times. It's important to remember that poetry often works through symbolism and metaphor, so the meaning may not be literal.